To win your love
I wish I had words to say
That pulled heartstrings like Michael Bible.
Or I would just hold your hand on a warm summer day.
I would twirl you around as the swing music plays.
Oh, to see your sweet smile as we talk face to face.
So why is it I just turn Away?
I'm afraid you'd reject me, and leave me ashamed.
And my stupid pride doesn't want to lose face.
To confess how I feel leaves me vulnerable.
And the scars of the past say that's intolerable.
They tell me a fall is inevitable.
I'm sorry to be so cynical.
But love unrequited is all I've known.
I apologize this piece is not really uplifting. I have had the beginning of it stuck in my head for some time, in various phrasings. I wanted a kind of cute romantic poem, but reality let me know that all I have known is delusion when it comes to relationships with any girl I have had a crush on. I either shut up, and become very serious with everything, or I act like I'm in 2nd grade. I find it pretty much impossible to "be myself". It's remarkably frustrating to deal with, so I let cynicism run its course and then I don't have to change.